Monday, December 30, 2013

WHAT DOES YOUR TREE LOOK LIKE?


LUKE 13:6-9...."A man had a fig tree growing in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it but did not find any.  So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, For three yours now I've been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven't found any.  Cut it down!  Why should it use up the soil?  Sir, 'the man replied, 'leave it alone for one more year, and I'll dig around it and fertilize it.  If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.'"

        As we all know, God is the owner of this tree that was being spoke of.  This passage reminds me of how I want to live my life. I used to be so quick to serve and praise God for the good and the bad in my life.  Everyone could see the changes I was going through, but were quick to tell me it wouldn't last for long.  As the years went by, God was able to show me so many wonderful things, but I began to stop doing for him.  I was also able to see that I was starting to slack off. I didn't want those people to be right.   I began to notice that I hadn't been serving in the church as often I had been in the past. I began to take for granted my hours of breathe.  I began to take for granted the time I have here on earth and my purpose in life.   

     Just recently, God has shown me that, that is not the person that I want to be.  I want to bear much fruit on my tree.  I want to be able to walk in a room and people see the light of Jesus in the way I behave, speak and live.  Too often I wake up and forget to give thanks to HIM for one more day to take in the air from the morning day.  This passage is a reminder to me that God is not as tolerant as  we think him to be, but because his mercy is unfailing, he is willing to give us just a little more time to repent.  Jesus loves me so much that he was willing to bear so much pain on the cross so that I wouldn't have to.  Because he had faith that I would come know that immense love he fought to give me.  

    The caretaker said to the owner... "I'll dig around it and fertilize it."  Jesus is that caretaker.  He is molding us each and every day that we chose to let him in and take over.  Every time we give him our problems, every time we chose to live for him, every day that we wake up with him on our minds.  He is supplementing us by giving us his precious words and his presence.  He asked God for the chance to give us more time, so that he could do his work in us.  When we have ultimately let our guard down and given up on HIM, his patience ultimately wears thin and he gives up on us. 

    One thing that is very clear in this passage though, is that God will eventually cut down that non bearing fruit tree! God gives us the chance to accept Jesus into our hearts, and Jesus is constantly knocking on our door, but so often we refuse him.  Let's just give up what "religion" brings (customs, hypocrisy, perversion).... and let us just live for Christ... let us just let him in and have that perfect relationship, friendship, brotherhood with him.  I want to my life to prove that my love for HIM is, in fact, ALIVE and that he is ALIVE in me.  I want to bear fruit on my tree that shows that Christ's perfect sacrifice was not made in VEIN.!!!!

Sunday, July 21, 2013

HOLDING ON

 

Hebrews 10:23:  Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. (ESV, 2001)

For a while there,  I was losing complete sight of what God wanted me to do in my life. I was moved up to the Assistant Manager of the hotel I was working at.  It doubled my pay, and I was able to keep my same benefit package.  I was completely thrilled.  I also started going back to school.  So, needless to say my cup was over flowing with blessings.  But, I was still felling a sense of loss.  Even though I was still involved with my church.... I wasn't exactly "involved". I never had time to go anymore because I had to work until 8pm or finish my class assignments.  I think I was a complete mess.   I was caught up in the motions of every day routines.  I would get up go to work, work till about 7 or 8 pm, come home and finish up homework and go to sleep.  I didn't even have time to spend time with my children or devote any time to the Lord in prayer or even just meditating in the beauty of the day.  I think it's safe to say that I was becoming what I would call religious. 

I have to say that God never left my side though.  I got to the point where I would just ask him, "God, please just show me what it is that you want me to do.  I am asking you to give me a sign so I know that you have something planned for me".  About a week passed by, and it was the one weekend when I was able to attend evening church service.  God spoke to my heart and he said, "My daughter, it is necessary that I put you through challenges so that you may know my plans for you, be patient and hold on and find your strength me".  I don't think words could even describe what my soul was feeling. He answered everything I needed in that very instant.  All  that I could do was put my complete trust in him at that very moment.  Then came the day of ultimate test.  I was in a conference call with the regional manager.  He needed me to step up the game and work 6 days a week.  That was my end straw and I was getting very frustrated.  I had refused to work 6 days a week till 8 o'clock at night anymore.  The regional manager, didn't even think about it one second and directed me to turn in my resignation. 

I took a leap of faith and I turned in my 2 weeks resignation notice.  I figured, "you know what, I just need to trust that the Lord WILL prevail and WILL NEVER LEAVE ME"!  He will let me know exactly what he wants from me.  I would be lying if I told you that I wasn't a little scared.  But I went to look for some encouraging comfort in the arms of a very trusted friend from church.  She helped me gather my thoughts and we prayed and she reminded me that I AM A WOMAN OF GOD! Women of God put their faith in the Lord and know that Jesus made the perfect sacrifice for us.  At that moment, I said,  "Lord, Jesus Christ you know my heart, and you know exactly what you have planned for me. Be my rock and be my strength, because you are my salvation.  I give all that I am to you and I surrender this burden to you.  I don't ask you to take it from me, but I ask that you help me get through it".  That very same day, I received a phone call from the same regional manager, and he told me that I could keep my job.  He offered me to go back to my guest relations position and still keep my benefits and full time hours and only work day shift.  I was absolutely stunned.  I broke down at the moment and thank the Lord for his everlasting mercy and love.  I am not worthy of his patience and I sin him everyday.  But he always stands by me and strengthens me when I ask it of him.

Just know that while we as human beings are inclined to reject the Lord's love for us, he is a kind, gentle and loving God.  He does become jealous for his children, but loves us more than any other. 

~ Kristi


Sunday, March 4, 2012

PRIORITIZE

Luke 10:38-42

38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
   41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”


My question to you today is ... Do you put Jesus first, above all things? How much time do we really dedicate to our Lord? The following post will be kind of harsh to most, but for a Christian it is necessary to be heard.

I have had such a hard time with this lately. I have come to the conclusion that I as a Christian do not dedicate myself enough to my God. He has given us life. He has given us everything we want; and I am not talking in the aspect of riches or gold. I am talking about good health and the time to praise him.
I know that most of the time we feel there are just not enough hours in the day to get done the things we need or want to get done.  But out of all of those hours in our busy lives, how much time do we take to really sit down and contemplate the love of our Jesus and the life that he has given us.  How much time do we take to read the bible; even if only one verse. I can tell you that just one verse or one word from the Bible can change a life or feelings. The Word of God to our soul is like food for our being. We need that food to survive in this world, just as the Holy Spirit that God has sent to us needs the Word of God daily to keep strong in us... so that we are strong in our faith. 

It isn't easy to find the time to sit and read the Bible, but God doesn’t want us to sit and memorize the Bible front to back if we do it just to say we have. It is better to study each word - each and every word and sentence in the Bible has a meaning. We just have to ask for it in prayer. Okay so I got off track there for a second. Back to the matter at hand. As my Pastor explained, Martha and Maria were servants of God.  But when Jesus came to visit them Martha wanted everything to be perfect for him so that he would come back. And that is good that Martha wanted to serve Jesus in the best way she could, but if it wasn't for Maria Jesus would have been sitting all alone while Martha worried about everything else besides Him. The same as if we were entertaining guests in our own home. I am so guilty of being "Martha".  When someone goes to visit you they go to visit and spend time with you, not your television (while waiting for you). Another good example that my Pastor gave was- when we are in church we indulge in the presence of God and try to fill ourselves with the Holy Spirit first, then we eat ( listen to the word of God).  God wants us to put him FIRST, and then he takes care of all the things that come after ( our busy lives ... shopping, eating, errands, etc...) If we could just put him first above our children, above work, above the stress of everyday life situations, he will make sure that our children are taken care of; he will make sure that those errands get done; he will provide our tables with an abundance of food.

I remember when my husband and I got married. We had gotten a 2 bedroom apartment and when we moved in we had absolutely nothing but or Flat screen T.V.  (LOL)  That was when we were still in our first months of accepting Christ as our Savior. And we were so scared in the beginning because my husband was the only one working and was only bringing home max $600 every two weeks. Now keep in mind we still had to pay our electric, water, gas, and rent not including groceries. (And we had our 2 kids at that time) So you could imagine that our bills were definitely adding up to be more than what we were actually bringing in. But we keep going to church, letting God have what was his and trusting that God would take care of us for putting him first in our lives without asking for anything in return. And I can tell you that it was only by his Grace and his love for us that somehow the bills were always paid on time, including our rent, each day our apartment filled up with new things. I really can't even begin to explain all the blessings that God wants to give us every day.  But he wants to give us these things without asking for anything in return. Jesus died on a cross to save our selfish hatred filled lives without asking for anything in return.  God gave to us his only Son without asking for anything in return. The least we could do is dedicate at least 10 minutes to him a day. He is worth so much more than ANYTHING THIS WORLD HAS TO OFFER!!!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

*::..AN EMOTIONAL WRECK..::*


 3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5 For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.

I have needed this so bad for about the last week or so.  I am here to tell you that I have been just an emotional wreck lately.  Now, aside from all of the pregnancy hormones; I think I just feel overly stressed or frustrated about life in general.  I am usually a very "happy about life" type of person... but lately trying to keep up with being a pregnant working mommy, my son going through a "lying" spell, and my daughter being a whine butt about everything; has literally just broken my spirits. 

One of the biggest things that the Bible teaches us is to reach out to the Lord and ask for mercy in PRAYER. Such a major part of being a Christian is going to your knees in prayer and I feel as if I am failing in that department.  I have the need but no effort. It is so hard to do what I know I have to do.  I make excuses for not doing it.  I know that many women face this everyday, and my heart goes out to those women.  Its almost like I am keeping myself in this position, because I know from first hand experience that when I am in commune with the Lord and the Holy Spirit touches my soul... I instantly feel so much better. I guess my struggle right now is really to just stop being lazy and let God take over.

A FRESH START
Almightly and Merciful God!
I want to thank you Lord for this blessed day
Thank you for taking care of my family
Thank you for providing us with the necessities
of this life
Lord, in the name of my blessed Savior Jesus
I ask that you build up my strength and help me
be a better mother everyday, help me be the best
wife I can be, help me to set a good example to
those who look up to me or look my way for guidence
But most of all my heavenly faithful Father, bulid up
my Faith in YOU more and more each day!
Teach me O merciful God to come to you with whole 
hearted  confidence and love in my time of suffering or need. 
I am yours my God
In the name of the Father , the Son and the Holy Spirit
I PRAY O LORD
AMEN!! <3


Monday, September 5, 2011

I BELIEVE




"Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked."--- PSALMS 84:10

It has literally taken me sense the last time I blogged to figure out what I wanted to talk about.  There are so many ideas and situations that are not only in my mind to talk about but also in my heart. Sometimes I find it really difficult to take bits and pieces from each idea and just mesh it all together....but here we are.

In the past, I had always considered myself a Christian, whether I thought I was Catholic or even Baptist. There are so many denominations around these days. No matter what the  denomination ...we all believe there is "a God".  But I was never really ever involved with a church.  So here lately I have wanting to be more involved at the church that my family and I attend, so we have been able to get what is called a "Cell" or Bible Study, if you will in our home. We have a deacon from the church that leads our Bible Study every Friday. So just recently (last Friday) by the Grace of God, my husband got to lead the study.  This is something that he has wanted to do since we got fully involved with the church just a year and a half ago.  I was totally amazed by how God is using him! He did such a fantastic job on interpreting the word of God to these young people in the group. As I watched him lead this study, I could see so much emphasis and passion about being able to bring the light to the others in the group. I was just totally awed.

Being that the church that we attend is filled with Spanish language speaking members, its hard for me to invite the people I know to church (because they wouldn't understand). So, being there and watching my husband has inspired me to want to show others the light or just a better life if you will.  My hearts desire is to start a weekly Christian Newsletter and go door to door just trying to make a difference in other people life. I have even thought of like a weekly or biweekly bible study for the neighbor hood kids to come to. I know that I am not a minister or professional preacher (theologists), but I just want to bring some hope to those who need it.!  There is just something unexplainable in my heart; that when i see others suffering from whatever turbulence that life may bring them, I can't help but feel my heart literally breaking for these people.  I want people to feel the happiness and joy that knowing Jesus loves each and every one of us can make them feel.

I had an experience with someone at work the other day, and I guarantee you that the devil is so devious and sneaky that you never know what hit you, until take a minute to reflect.  This gentleman, was trying to convince me that there was no such thing as Heaven or Hell.  He also tried to say other things that if there is somehow "a God" then who made him; and just other questions like that, that true Christians dare not question!  I tried to explain a few of the questions he was asking, but as we both know, you cannot explain the Glory of God to someone who really has no intentions of listening.  So unbelievably I had become very patient with him (although I could feel my heart beating a million miles an hour, and could feel my blood just getting to the point of boiling...Hahaha),  as he sat there in front of me making notion after notion.  He said he was someone who had no belief in any religion or the Bible, but yet contradicted himself by saying that..."well if there is a God, than I believe that there are more Gods above that one and so on and so on".   I really believe that this man is just confused and is searching for something in his life. I wanted to be the one to open his eyes, but there really is no way to help someone understand unless they have the "want to" (listening to the Holy Spirit) or have had a personal experience with God.  So in order things not to escalate to an argument, I politely told him that he was perfectly entitled to his own opinion, BUT I BELIEVE THAT GOD IS OUR ONE AND ONLY CREATOR AND THAT JESUS SAVED ME WHEN HIS BLOOD WAS SHED ON THE CROSS THAT DAY AND WAS RESURRECTED TO GIVE US NEW LIFE AND TO LEAD US TO EVERLASTING "LIFE" IN HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!


Sunday, July 24, 2011

"""SUFFERING"""

1 PETER 3:13-1713 Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? 14 But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear their threats[a]; do not be frightened.”[b] 15 But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, 16 keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. 17 For it is better, if it is God’s will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.



    This passage was not written to the nonbelievers, it was written specially for "believers" who act WITHOUT FAITH or in BAD FAITH. I believe I have mentioned this before but, just as a child is punished by its father....as are we by God.  We are his children. If we are acting out of bad faith he is going to punish us for already knowing better.  Often times when we get hurt by someone we automatically feel that we need some kind of apology or we feel that we need to hurt the person who hurt us, so they can feel what it is to hurt like we are.  If this happens ... you are only setting yourself up for destruction.  It is never good to pay a wrong with another wrong.  We are only human, but just as a human can chose to hurt someone...a human can also chose to turn the other way and LOVE THIER ENEMIES as well.  I know that is easier said than done, but I DARE YOU TO TRY IT!!!!! Let God deal with all the unnessecary arguments and petty things in life... worry that you are doing everything in your own might to earn eternal life!
   If we are constantly doing good in our lives, then our only goal is to WAIT  for the good to come our way.  So many times we say to ourselves..."why is God doing this to me"..."he sees all the good I do for everyone else in this world"......You are right! He does see all the good you do, but also he expects for you to be patient in the bringing of the good as well.  Don't sit and expect a thank you from NO ONE! You arent doing good to impress MAN... but someone so much more powerful and worthy than man. We should just be able to help others without needing anything in return to satisfy our own being. DOING GOOD IS OUR PROTECTION AGAINST THE EVIL!
   I understand if you are the type of person to sit there and pick out every single bad defect of those around you.....but look at it this way.... Say you are sitting next to a filthy homeless person....you have no idea why that person is in that situation, but still you sit there picking out his defects (stinky, smells bad, probably never went to school)....then he starts to talk to you and you hesitate to converse back with him, but not to be overly rude you mumble back to him a response. Then he leaves your side.......and from a distance you see that he is helping an elderly lady with the door, then someone drops some money and he picks it up and gives it back to the owner without hesitation..without expecting anything in return!!! And then he walks out the same way he came in and goes about his way.  The purpose of this little story, is to show you that we can choose to see the defects of the people surrounding us, but to all the good that they do instead covers up all of those other defects.  That is a TRUE BLESSING, to be able to see the good in EVERYONE. 
   This passage covers so much that we experience in life and pretty much sums life up in one small paragraph.  Sometimes we suffer (so many of us do).  But we are suppose to treat these sufferings as blessings. I know that seems very difficult to understand, but as you already know they are meant for us to learn from and be stronger the next time around.  In the moments that we suffer the most is when God is testing our faith the most.  When we see our loved ones suffering or friends suffering, don't automatically judge them for whatever it is that they are going through.....but motivate them to want to be better. This is another reason why we suffer the way we do, so that we can help others who are going through something that we already have been through....and what helped us and what didnt.  
    For those of us who have made a durastic change for Christ, (stopped drinking, smoking, drugs, etc...) we need to accept those types of sufferings (the way a Christian is suppose to act)... and embrace that not doing those things anymore is WORTH IT.... because in the end we will live forever in peace with our Lord...and that is our hope (that is our ANSWER.)!! Stay firm in your belief and just let the Lord take care of the rest.  If it is God's will for us to suffer, then SO BE IT, accept it, because you know what waits for you after this world-something more precious and valuable then the prize for doing evil and foolish self centered things. GOD KNOWS WHY HE DOES WHAT HE DOES!!!!!!!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

*** YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL***

" Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will".  ROMANS 12:2


>> Nothing says it better than this passage.  I am a person who has ALWAYS been so self conscious about my physical appearance.  Now keep in mind that the only time I have ever been under a size 10 was in middle school. I just have never been "the skinny girl".  And although I grew up in a home where I was always given praise about being beautiful and what not... in my mind that has never been the case.  My weight has been such a struggle for me for as long as I can remember.  If I'm not thinking about the "important things" in life... I can guarantee you that I will always be thinking about my weight.  Its like a disease that I can't get rid of.  This is a big issue that I keep asking God to help me with.  I pray that God help me through this weight complex of mine.  I just want to be healthy.  Now days I don't want to be skinny (I never have been) but I just want to be normal.  Right now, online sites and or doctors have told me that I am overweight for my height (5'3) which is probably true... But all I want is to lose is about 30 pounds or so... I don't think that is much... and I know its not an out of this world goal.  I have done it before now I just gotta do it again. 
>> Anyway, back to the subject at hand.  The Bible teaches us that Man came from the dust of the Earth (signifies strong) and us ladies from the rib of a man ( signifies fragile).  So I don't care how hard you work to keep your body fat or skinny... our bodies(flesh and bones) will wither away back into the Earth.  When we are in Heaven our bodies will be made into some so beautiful unrecognizable to any human form.  We will all be the "SAME". There won't be fat, skinny, or even in between differences.  Jesus teaches us that to love others we must love ourselves.  We have to be confident that God has made us for such a much more important reason than to be obsessed with our physical LOOKS.  I found a really great site on line that can help to explain better what I am really trying to say... here is just a little something from that site....

Psalm 139:14

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
What it means: You are created in the image of God, and God doesn't make junk! Like a snowflake, every person is unique. No two are the same. God sees you as a masterpiece; and when you look in the mirror, He wants you to "know that full well." Try this beauty tip: Every morning when you look in the mirror, say Psalm 139:14 and smile. You might even tape the verse on your mirror as a reminder! <<<GREAT IDEA :)

>>> God is the only person who DOESN'T look at what man looks at.  He loves us unconditionally and every day that we can say that the only important thing we should be focusing on is making ourselves beautiful ON THE INSIDE will only lead to VICTORY.  Because the social media today has a totally twisted concept of Beautiful ....... so Tell someone how beautiful they are today ( no matter what they look like) ;) Love is awesome , spread some!!!

GOD BLESS,
 KRISTI MARIE<3